Why does joy strike when it is least suspected?

As I sit here all alonely, I ponder should I allow myself to feel the joy that I feel when I spend the time with the one I like. Should I allow myself to be opened up and analysed for all the world to see.  Should I give happiness another chance?

I was pondering this when I was approached by the person that I like, asking me if i wanted to work with them. Me being the person driven to look for companionship (does that make me too much like The Doctor alway needing a companion to keep him centered) agreed instantly, boy am I so happy that I accepted. I had one of the best days I have had in so long, since before my depression kick in 19 months ago. I had a genuine smile on my face for the first time in as long as I remember.

And I was just think for this entire day I should tell her how I feel but alas I was too cowardly to do it, and this left me with a dilemma. Should I give in to my feelings ,pursue this girl and admit my feelings or should I just leave it be and hope for the best? That is the question I am faced with.

After talking to my best friend and telling him all this, and listening to his sound advice on this subject ( Congrats on 11 months with your girl btw) I have decided to pursue her.

Who knew that joy and happiness would give me another chance and appear to me again and I am thankful for this chance and I for my own sake ( and my friends who will have to listen to my sadness) that this works out

Bye Y’all Hope you can find that someone that means something to you soon or if you already have that person make sure that they know they are special to you.